Here it goes...

Its been almost a year since we broke up, but my feelings towards you hasn't changed at all,

before I was kinda happy that you're happy with him, yes although I'm jealous but since you're happy, i'm happy for you too. 

Recently I only know that you've broke up with him long ago but then your feelings towards him...maybe its like mine towards you ? idk...i know that feeling is strong, i know how much you love him...i've been always sad and angry about how he has not treated you better than I did since he snatched you away from me. I admit i lost to him in many things...looks...height...smarter than me perhaps ? muscular than me...yeah i admit i lost to him but then i realized that he's a pure scumbag that only good at flirting and in the earlier stage of relationship. 

I have no idea how he could treated you like this ? You're just perfect in every way, when we were together i would have do anything to make you happy and smile and making you cry is not in my to-do-list at all i swear, although i did made you cry without realizing...sigh.

Recently I have been going back to ipoh often and i do see you everytime i got back too, i was so happy just to see you :) but then i also realized that all my feelings towards you have been rushing back all out. I dont know what should i do...you're obviously not over him and all those sad emotional tweets that you twitter few days ago, it kinda breaks my heart seeing those tweets ya'know ? I got emotional that day too......same goes to yesterday night.

Yesterday night i got emotional suddenly and i went searching back all those conversations we had in facebook...i wanted to cry but i just couldnt, its suffering. So i decided to go out to the store and get a bottle of beer and a packet of cigarettes. Yes i know its a stupid thing to do but i did it. I drank and i smoked almost half a pack of it. I did cry out a lil though but still i couldnt get it all out in me. 

All i gotta say is you're a perfect girl, you're the most special person i have met and i have never stop loving you and i never will. You are the one, you are the love of my life :)